Hmm.......... I given a long thought for the whole morning & afternoon..... till now......... I think and think thru...... maybe between us..... we lack of step 2 ba..... which is the persuing stage. So erm...... I hope that u will give me a chance to let me restart from stage 2.
Is it possible? I will be using this blog here as a messaging blog to u ba...... so erm.... well...... I could feel that now I am the one dependent on u ler.......

Before I leave for tekong...... I just wanna tell u that...... I really miss u..... I will never forget u, really can't do anything without u........ I hope that u still be my energy pillar....... n like what we said last nite..... lets hope time will tell us about our future.

Chill Off~

Terence @ 1:16 AM

MaoMao : Life Of a Broken Heart.....

To Giselle~

Hmm.......... I really dunno what my heart is feeling now. I just find it weird...... we seems to be together.... but officially we r not..... I think I have a split personality liao...... I think I had to put out a brave front on the surface, but deep in me..... I just felt sad. The saddness seems to be beyond my description lor.I thought after a night's sleep, I will wake up and feel better to blog for u. But I dunno...... when I just try to clear so msg on my hp....... I just can't bear to delete any msg u sent me. Especially When I saw the past msg u sent me....... I really broke down! Tried to think positively, but somehow I just can't....... all of my memory flash back really pulls my heart down. I really dunno....just so confuse.

Okie just wanna share with u how I was feeling yesterday bah.......... Well, I would say at the start of the day till b4 u board the bus was sorta really happy bah. Just as I was waiting for u to arrive, my mind was thinking of u and my heart kept asking "Wonder how are u since it been 18 days I last met u? What will u be wearing today? What colour shirt will u be wearing etc etc.

Even when u told me about the step back u wish to take between us, at that point of time I was really feeling okie and I really respect your decisions as all I want is for u to be happy in whatever u do and decisions u make.

I dunno y but the hug u gave me b4 u board the bus, I really got the urge to hold u tightly and not letting u go. Despite feeling sad inside, but I was glad that I manage to control after u left. But after I myself boarded the bus, I think I knew that I cant control any longer ba. Especially when my Mp3 plays the song "lao shu ai da mi" & "Tong Hua"....... I really cannot continue to listen to it ler...... cuz these songs just reminds me of u and the time we were together.

Currently, I am really unsure of what is our status now. Normal Frenz? Close Frenz? Special Frenz? I really dunno. I kept telling myself to take a step @ a time..... but I dunno what in the kuku is happening to me ba. One thing for sure will be I have never ever blame u for this. So dun keep telling me sorry k? So long as u r happy with your decision, I will accept it so long as u promise me to stay happy daily without tears flowings out k?

Even how much my heart hope that u will regret your decisions, but I shall wait for time to give us an answer k?

Really can't forget the mements we are together & I can say that my door is always awaiting for u to collect back the "kuku" Maomaoz from the rubbish bin.

Chill Off~ with tears & love..............

Terence @ 4:19 PM

MaoMao : Life Of a Broken Heart.....